Can I make it to University of Liverpool?

Throughout my 19 years of education, I have never pressured into obtaining a specific result. All I did was to work hard to achieve my desired result. Whether I obtain it, it really did not matter. I never thought of the importance of achieving excellent result. Even back in Pre-U, I never thought of entering university, never though of excellent result has significant effect on university application; all I did, was to do my best and I obtained my desired result all the time.

In Year 1, I lost. Life changed, faced multiple set backs.

This year, I tried my very best to improve myself from the beginning. I try to study hard, to do my best.

Now, I have only one week left to prepare everything, one week to determine where I'll head to: University of Liverpool or University of West of England, Bristol.

Of coure, my vision is to enter University of Liverpool. Who doesn't want? Among Top 30 Law University.

Having the desire to enter is one matter, whether I'm able to enter is another matter.

I'm not sure whether I could obtain the required 60% average requirement. I'm full of doubt, I can't really say I can obtain it.

All I can do, is to pray that everything goes on smoothly throughout these two weeks. I'll work hard until the last second, keeping in mind, University of Liverpool is where I want to go this September!

Law of Tort, Land Law, Law of Evidence, Company Law, Legal Practice... I love you all so much! Muaxxxx!!!

Of course, nothing is comparable to the love for my mum, Happy Mother's Day!

AND

the love for my beloved babe, Nicole Yeoh... Happy 300th day Anniversary! Love you lots!

Wish me all da best!

A month left..

Over the last one month, I've been writing essays, answering questions and trying hard to improve my writing skills. Recalling back last year, I was quite impressed of myself, not becaused I scored well in examination (because I didn't), but how naive I was. I thought scoring examination is all about knowing the law well. Yes I did, I know the law very well until I can tell anyone the law. Unfortunately, I cannot put the knowledge in law into words. Imagine I did not prepare many essays or questions, not even a glance into the past year papers. Oh gosh, I thank God for letting me passing my examinations.

Come to the point, I think I almost forgot how I did well in my previous years. Perhaps, the first step is to have the thoughts, "I'm not prepared well enough, I've not do enough." I recalled I scored excellently in SAM and High School not because I kept reading until the last minute, but I finished doing every past year questions. I did not have high confidence that time, not even when I believed I answered well in the examination. Last year failure was because I was too naive, over confident into believing that "I scored well in the previous years, this is nothing. Absolutely nothing!"

No, studying in University, is not all about how we did in the past, but how we are going to do in the now and future. Studying is an on going process, it's our current effort that determine the future but not the past. I realized, no matter how excellent we score in the past, it can never determine our standard of excellency today and vice versa. I realized how depressed I were when seeing students who scored fairly compared to me in the past actually achieved much better results than I in Year 1.

Perhaps I shall start changing my thinking. For the past one month I have been trying hard to write well, telling myself it ain't enough until I score at least 12/20 in my essay albeit it's hard since the highest ever seen among m coursemates is 13/20. So far, I've seen myself getting around 10-11, but that were essays I prepared at home and not those I wrote in class. When I thought I wrote a good essays in the past, I realized I did not this morning. I've been reading articles on how to write good law essays for the past two days. I realized I have not done enough. I have all the points from reading various articles, but I've not acquire the skills in structuring the essays and putting all the thoughts into organized paragraphs.

Yes, I'm going to do this... starting now or never. Deep inside, I know I'm much pressured to prove to myself for once again that I'm back. I know I must do this, for once proving to myself that I'm once an excellent student, and I'm still today.

Just as I was depressed over my Year 1 result, I received a letter of scholarship from University of Liverpool, a scholarship of 25% of the school feels equivalent approximately RM10,000. Oh gosh, that amount can be used to travel around Europe! I can get the scholarship, provided I score 2:1 in Year 2.

Regardless of what, I'm doing this for myself, for my future and I hope my darling and I are able to score 60% and above in our Year 2 Final Examination. To enter University of Liverpool, we must obtain an average of 60%. That says, we must score at least 12/20 in each essay. I know it's hard, but I love challenges. I will not stop until the last second, minute.

Wish us luck... Till then, most likely I will dissappear from my journal, blog. Say short farewell to my lose weight journal.

Zz..

69 more days to Final Examination!

Oh no! I finally see the 69 coming! Geezz... Soon after I hand in my assignment next week, I'll have approximately 60 days to buck up!

Recently, I've been procrastinating a lot! I'm not so sure. I seem to use much of time surfing on the net for fitness articles. sigh! With about two more months to exam, I think I should really stay focus.

Perhaps, one thing that draws me behind my schedule in study is the coming mooting assessment (14 March) and Evidence assignment (16 March)! Until they are over, I've no mood in doing much revision. I slacked a lot since christmas! Although I managed to buck up little, I don't think it's enough. I skipped two lectures this week because of mooting preparation and assignment, am feeling guilty. I'll probably skip another two lectures again this week to prepare for the mooting and assignment.

I'm telling myself, after this week no more skipping. After this week, I shall really turn my attention towards study and workout besides of course some time for my precious darling.

Anyway, I managed to hit 88kg on the scale this week. Although I believe it's water weight. I lifted 5 times this week but only ran 3 times. Sigh! I had three cheat meals this week.

Perhaps, the decision my deary and I made, not to attend the Law Ball this end of the month really back me off a little from working out and maitaining a strict and discipline diet. Anyway, I really hope I'll go back to Kuching this June in a fit shape! I also hope by the time I meet my deary at Penang in July, I'll become even fitter!

Keep burning! Keep burning!

See the food of the week!

Dinner my darling cooked last night! Yummy yummy! Chicken breast + dark chocolate + raisins + cheese! (of course she ate the one with cheese!)

Cheese cakes on her Lunar Bday early this week!

She cooked this on last weekend! Yummy yummy!

We went The Garden on Tuesday and had this! Yummy yummy! Forgot the outlet name.

Apparently, we jogged (I suppose walked) to Bangsar Village area and settled our dinner with these! hahaha.. yum yum! We went to the pasar malam and grabbed some snacks too! hahaha

Last nite when we felt little food craving! went to giant and went crazy! hahaha.. but was so kind! In the end I settled with one Whole Grain Cereal! haha.. and we shared one Oreo McFlurry! (Deary, you challeged me put right? hahaha!)
Our supposedly last cheat meal of the week, yesterday! One personal pizza and two deli wings, shared.

tata... hope to keep burning this coming weeks and get fitter. Although, not going to Law Ball anymore, I'm happy to see my progress!

Shocking... Need to review diet and workout

Seriously I'm in need to review my diet and workout..

I've been reading and updating my diet and workout plan.

Which portion should i eat? 40/40/20 or 20/60/20 (carb/protein/fats).

Up to now, I'm still wondering how much calorie instake I shd take. Eating above 2k calories a day since impossible without junk and fast food... I've been constantly eating only around 1k to 1.5k calories a day... which is unhealthy.

This morning, I weighed myself on the scale... it hit 87kg!!! Gosh! I couldn't believe it and I asked my roommate to read for me.

I know I shd be happy, but I think it's water weight... summore I don't think it's healthy. Maybe really water weight, since I jogged 1 hour and did 30minutes workout yesterday. I'm afraid my muscle is being used up due to calorie deficit instead of burning the fat. Sigh... Need to review my diet.

I do feel myself slimmed down a lot since chinese new year. Those tight shirts which I wore during CNY are now kinda loose... My arms are more toned than before...

Anyway, blended 3 egg whites and 2 whole egg in a 250ml milk this morning it tast yucks!!! I'm sick of eating eggs now :(

Drinking more than 5 bottles of 750ml water everyday is good..

Burn, Burn Burn... Keep Burning!

After a week of hard training and running, although not as intense as previously due to the bad weather, and also eating at least 6 eggs a day (2 whole, 4 white) that yucks me...

I'm here to announce... I finally see myself on the scale hitting 89kg!!!

Thanks to my body, mind and soul for the continuing motivation! I want to see myself on the scale 88kg next weekend. 1kg a week is healthy... Keep going!!!

Anyway, apart from the daily egg consumption, I had this for my cheat meal on Thursday...

McDonald's Spicy Chicken McDelux! It was for only RM7++! Too bad.. today last day.




On other nights, we cook something like this...

Steamed Chicken Breast, Brocolli and some vege..

Kenny's Fitness Routine Revived Again

I'm reviving my fitness journal for once again.

Seriously, I really need to keep up with my journal and start losing weight again. When I came back from Kuching for the Chinese New Year, my weight scaled 95kg! Oh gosh! It was my heaviest weight ever.

Throughout last year, my workout routine has been badly affected by my assignments, study and final examination. I stopped workout complotely for the last 8 months and gained up to 15kg in a year. I wish I could get back to my lowest weight, 79kg when I just completed SAM in Taylors.

Anyway, seeing that Prom Night is around, 33 more days go... I have no choice but to start workout and diet.

In fact, I did. I started dieting, keeping in watch my daily intake, avoiding every single refined sugar food... no more junk, no more fast food, no more fattening food. I did not consume any set meals of McDonald since I came back from Kuching. Went there just to eat the chicken porridge. I replaced my snack with fruits. I drink 5 x 700ml bottle of mineral water everyday.

For the past 3 weeks, I have lose 5kg. I'm quite happy with the progress, although I want more! Net weight is 90kg at the moment. Hoping to see the '8' start soon. Hoping to reach 86kg at least before Prom Night.

Been doing resistance training (lifting) 4 times a week
Jog/HIIT 6 times a week...

Burn burn burn... Keep burning...

Wish me luck!

Looking Back My Previous 19 Years

Fine, I know... Christmas is over, Year 2009 has begun a month ago, Chinese New Year is entering its 10th day. That shows how long I did not update my blog.

Before I realise, I'm turning 20 years old real soon... and I'm here blogging to make a note before I turn 20.

I couldn't remember much on my life when I was younger than 5 years old.

At 6 years old, I remember a Santa came to my class and distributed gifts when I was studying at Bodhi Kindergarten.

At 9 years old, I remember my best teacher, Mr Henry Pui asked the class to estimate the height of a cupboard. I did, but wrong. The class genius then, and now, Aldrin Wong made a correct guess. Smart kid! *Farewell to him, since he is going to Australia!*

At 10 years old, I remember I attended the ceremony where my dad was called to the Bar (where he officially became an advocate).

At 11 years old, I remember I followed dad around during his Election Campaign. Being as young as then, I had the oppurtunity to walk around the polling centers and even noticed how vote counting is done.

At 12 years old, I got my first ever straight A's in public examination (UPSR). Thrilled.

At 13 years old, I remember I fought to become a prefect. Eventually I did. I remember a friend said to me "no matter how much you study, you won't be able to win me.".

At 14 years old, I became the Junior Head Prefect. I fought in both corricular, prefect and study and I excelled. Won the highest award of Form 2.

At 15 years old, I remember Pn Elin Akaw challenged me, "If you want to become a lawyer, don't be afraid but speak up" when she was persuading me to join the debate team. Again achieved straight As in PMR.

At 16 years old, I had my busiest ever life. Joined numerous activities, clubs and competitions. Eventually elected as the only youngest Senior Prefect.

At 17 years old, I made myself holding posts from Committee Member up to President in numerous clubs. I had wonderful memory and experience in the prefectorial board. Academically, I did well and eventually achieved straight As in SPM.

At 18 years old, I decided to study South Australian Matriculation. At the same time, I was determined and discipline. I made my most incredible decision, lose weight when I was at KL. I did, lost more than 25kg in a year. I also scored with a TER of 92.5, making me top 0.75 across the world.

At 19 years old, I know I slacked. Many things happened. Nevertheless, throughout the journey to the end of the year, I met my most precious person in my life, my darling Nicole. She is an important person who plays a part in my life. The person who is next to me, waiting the clock to strike 12am to wish me Happy 20th B'day.

When the clock strike 12.00am, marking 4th February 2009, one of the wishes that I'll make is, hopefully my sweetheart and I will make a difference in Year 2 and score well to enable us to complete our Year 3 at either Liverpool University or Cardiff University together.

Hopefully, a year from now, I will write here again stating that "At 20 years old, I had the best year of my life..." Hope for the best in my 20th year.

Happy Bday To Myself!~